Read this to the rhythm of your heartbeat
Or maybe mine, but disregard its high speed
‘cause those five beat, five mile deviations
are full of ambiguity
and I can’t tell if the other cars are angry
I’m too slow,
so show your hate through straight teeth
Endearing fool that stokes your mirth and pity
“You did it wrong, corrections are a no-go
Just take this tray
(careful now! quickly now! not too fast, though! NO!)
and load it over your throat”
The same way is the wrong way
when correction caught the first time
I’m sorry, but I’ve forged my habits into lifelines
So when I break down in the same place
as before, you’ll win the hard won right
to ‘you were right’
but which of us will pay?
You,
because I can’t clean up my messes,
You,
but now I know distress is
a wide brimmed hat that’s worn with different dresses
I tore my skirt, pay me some goddamn attention!
My petty lies and petticoats of ever higher roles
in the end, I’ll still be one of those jokes
I’m too slow to comprehend
Again, and again, and AGAIN.
Ha-ha, ha-ha, zone in, you took the wrong turn!
Fuck it, whatever, shift to reverse
Did you really think that I expected you to learn
from your mistakes you have no proper take on?
Wrong again, no, why’d you put the parking brake
on when this hill is flatter than you voice
Voicemail,
male like breastbone?
handsome lass, pretty lad,
ugly motherfucking little cad
You scared you’ll roll away?
Or, even worse, are you afraid
that after all this time,
all these miles wasted,
gas drained to dregs,
engine light red,
you’ll choose to stay?